Redefining
What bite size pieces
Mean
I don’t have to
Do or figure out
Everything
All at once
I am learning
To trust myself
And the process
No matter what
No longer
Gulping
Inhaling
Or force feeding
But rather
Triaging
What is truly
An emergency
Assembling my day accordingly
And furthermore
Reprioritizing
The order of things
So that I
Begin the morning
With what nourishes
And defines me
My purpose
And passion
Reason for living
Effectively
Putting all the bullshit
Into one category
A box
With circumscribed boundaries
That no longer
Take over my life
Or consciousness
Leaking
Into everything
Making it
An overwhelming
And uncontrollable
Mess
I had to
Learn to
Care less
Before I could
Operate like this
And at first
It seemed
Like a profound loss
I have you
To thank
For the level
Of intractability
That threatened
To destroy me
Circumstances
So extreme
That my only chance
At surviving
Was through
Dramatic shape-shifting
Internally reconstructing
Reorganizing
Figuring out
How to continue recognizing
The vastness of
Possibility
In the universe
While also accepting
The number of people
Invested in sabotaging
This available Glory
Choosing venom
Over heartfelt connection
Repeatedly
Leading to incessant
Conflict combat
And scores of individuals
Chronically shrinking
I began contemplating
How to bring divinity
Joy and serenity
Into the madness
And mundane tasks
Before me
Resolutely refusing
To become
Cynical or jaded
Like most of humanity
Singing praying and dancing
As I set about
Digging myself
Out from
Under this daunting avalanche
Because sometimes
As previously
Freedom means
Outsmarting
Sidestepping
Or jumping ship
Entirely
Boldly diving into
The black abyss
Not knowing
Where I am going
But fully aware
Not here
But other times
The component parts
In the pileup
Are exactly
What I need
To construct
The stability
Flow
And continuity
I seek
And the path
To manifesting my dreams
Is to get busy
Sifting through the debris
Allowing it to be hard
Because quite simply
It is
And just working at it
Piece by piece
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